Preparations

Psalm 9:18 Those who know your name will trust in You, for You, Lord, have never forsaken those who seek you.

It is two days before I see the onocologist to find out about chemo--what kind and when I start. I am ready to see him yet I get a little nervous. My life is about to change and I hate change. I hate starting new things at times, and since it's the unknown...it makes it harder. I have been reading and researching so that I will be better prepared but have these little silly questions like what does the chemo room look like, do I sit in a chair or a lie in a bed, what do I take with me, can I have people with me, can I eat, etc. Do they have classes like I hear about such as chemo class or the look better classes by the American Cancer Society. Then of course, I wonder about the side effects....I know each person is different so I wonder, what will I experience and what is going to help me through this (medications, etc). I dread going through chemo but know it's something that I need to do. I know that God is the one who is really going to help me through all of this. He promises to be with me and promises to protect me. I will trust in Him. I need to sit down and write down the questions I want to ask the dr. and the nurse. It really helped to have questions prepared when I visited with the radiation onocologist. I have all these questions in my mind but they need to be put down on paper. I am feeling better each day but still experience some pain when I overdo. I can't straighten out my right arm above my head but I can stretch it and use it to reach something. It's coming..... I'm trying to be good in eating better but I do love sweets. Sugar isn't good for cancer patients but God gave me such a sweet tooth!!! lol. I have cut down quite a bit in sweets (not that I was eating that much sweet stuff anyway) but I do crave it. I am trying to eat more fresh vegetables and fruit. I hear that asparagus is good for you and so will start eating that more. I have never cooked it but I do like eating it. No one else in my family really likes it. Well, keep praying for me. I will write again on Friday after I see the dr. My appt. is at 9 am. Larry is going along. He also plans to go with me to my first chemo treatment. His work has been so supportive and lets him off without any problems. I have recruited a friend to go with me when I go wig shopping. That should be fun. I have looked at short wig hairstyles. I don't really like short hair but maybe it would be a good idea to have a short hairstyle so that when my hair starts to grow back, I can quit wearing the wig and people will be used to me in short hair. Thanks to all of you for your encouragement--I love you.

Psalm 34:4 I sought the Lord and He answered me, He delivered me from all my fears.