Isaiah 46:4 I am He, I am He who will sustain you. I have made you and I will carry you; I will sustain you and I will rescue you!!!!
I kept this verse in my mind all day. I didn't want to go but knew I needed to so off we went. I was there for about 5 hours--doctor was late coming in so sat in the examing room for one hour!!! There were no problems with giving me the chemo and all the pre-chemo meds (anti-nausea, decadron, and benadryl) I came home sleepy and a slight headache so laid down and took a nap. I have been sick twice so far but feeling some better now. Am chewing on ice chips.
I received a neat gift today from Iraq!!! One of Larry's co-worker, Kevin, who I know is over in Iraq. He walked in a Relay for Life that they had over there and he walked in my name and received donations in my name !!!! How cool and how sweet. He sent me a t-shirt from the relay of Life which fits me perfectly. I saw the temps that they were having over there the other day so I hope he did his walk at night or early am. It was very hot there!!!
All my labwork looked good which is nice to know. I go tomorrow to get the Neulasta shot to keep me from having the white blood cell count go down too low. I am hoping I will feel better tomorrow like last time. Thanks for all of our prayers. Love you......
May the Lord bless you with the riches of His grace with the treasures of His love; with the comfort of His mercies; with the strength of His presence; with the touch of His care. May all that is in God's heart for you meet all the needs that your heart is now facing.
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Monday, June 29, 2009
Dsy before Chemo
Psalm 116:1-2 I love the Lord, for He heard my voice; He heard my cry for mercy. Because He turned His ear to me, I will call on Him as long as I live.
Tomorrow I will be taking treatment #3--only 5 after that!! I have been dreading it but I do realize that this is just something I have to go through so I might as well face it with a good attitude. It's just a "giant" in my life but instead of seeing it as a giant, I need to just see God!! He will get me through this as He has the other 2 treatments. I went to get my blood drawn today and the lab tech said that she liked my hair. She, of course, knows it's a wig (my onocologist has his own lab tech so she is the one who always draws my blood). She said that many women come in with wigs. I did laundry today and some other house cleaning since I know I won't feel like if for a few days. I seem to tire out more easily--thought it might just be the heat or lack of sleep, but i'm not sure about that. I hope my red blood counts are okay. A low red blood count can make you feel tired. I'll find out tomorrow. I go see the dr. at 8:20 am so will probably go to the chemo room around 9 am. Larry will take me but has to run into work for a while but not too long. Just keep me in your prayers on Tuesday as I go through chemo and the rest of the week. I am really wanting to go to my mom's for 4th of July so hoping I will feel well by Friday evening. Thanks for your prayers and love.
God gave us challenges in life, just so we'd come to know how good it feels to overcome...to learn and change and grow.
Tomorrow I will be taking treatment #3--only 5 after that!! I have been dreading it but I do realize that this is just something I have to go through so I might as well face it with a good attitude. It's just a "giant" in my life but instead of seeing it as a giant, I need to just see God!! He will get me through this as He has the other 2 treatments. I went to get my blood drawn today and the lab tech said that she liked my hair. She, of course, knows it's a wig (my onocologist has his own lab tech so she is the one who always draws my blood). She said that many women come in with wigs. I did laundry today and some other house cleaning since I know I won't feel like if for a few days. I seem to tire out more easily--thought it might just be the heat or lack of sleep, but i'm not sure about that. I hope my red blood counts are okay. A low red blood count can make you feel tired. I'll find out tomorrow. I go see the dr. at 8:20 am so will probably go to the chemo room around 9 am. Larry will take me but has to run into work for a while but not too long. Just keep me in your prayers on Tuesday as I go through chemo and the rest of the week. I am really wanting to go to my mom's for 4th of July so hoping I will feel well by Friday evening. Thanks for your prayers and love.
God gave us challenges in life, just so we'd come to know how good it feels to overcome...to learn and change and grow.
Sunday, June 28, 2009
church
Psalm 92:4-5 For you make me glad by your deeds, O Lord; I sing for joy at the works of your hands. How great are your works, O Lord, how profound your thoughts.
I finally went to church again. It felt so good to be there. I wore my new wig and I don't think I got too many weird looks ( just a few). I received such wonderful hugs from the ones who know I have cancer and they seem so happy to see me again. My wig hair still wants to flip up so guess I just have to get used to it. People say it's cute....do I believe them? lol. I need to get over my obsession with this hair bit.
I have felt so tired lately but I think it's just lack of sleep and the heat, etc. I am dreading chemo each day as it draws nearer. Only 2 more days until then. My mom won't be able to be with me this time as she had planned but that's okay. My hubby can get off work anytime he needs to. His work has been so supportive and understanding. Praise the Lord for that. Love you all......continue to pray and pray that this next chemo isn't too bad. Some say that the 3rd treatment is the worse but I am going to believe that for me, it will my best!!!!
Praying that the Lord will watch over you with His unfailing care...sooth you with His sustaining peace..and strengthen you with His healing touch.
I finally went to church again. It felt so good to be there. I wore my new wig and I don't think I got too many weird looks ( just a few). I received such wonderful hugs from the ones who know I have cancer and they seem so happy to see me again. My wig hair still wants to flip up so guess I just have to get used to it. People say it's cute....do I believe them? lol. I need to get over my obsession with this hair bit.
I have felt so tired lately but I think it's just lack of sleep and the heat, etc. I am dreading chemo each day as it draws nearer. Only 2 more days until then. My mom won't be able to be with me this time as she had planned but that's okay. My hubby can get off work anytime he needs to. His work has been so supportive and understanding. Praise the Lord for that. Love you all......continue to pray and pray that this next chemo isn't too bad. Some say that the 3rd treatment is the worse but I am going to believe that for me, it will my best!!!!
Praying that the Lord will watch over you with His unfailing care...sooth you with His sustaining peace..and strengthen you with His healing touch.
Saturday, June 27, 2009
3 days before chemo
Psalm 103:1-2 Praise the Lord, O my soul, all my inmost being, praise his holy name. Praise the Lord, O my soul and forget not all his benefits--who forgives all your sins and heals all your diseases.
Three more days before I have chemo treatment number 3!! I am trying to prepare myself for the chemo treatment--physically and mentally. I've been trying to get my home school papers all graded and finally got all the grades written down and report cards done. I feel like I finally accomplished something. I got so behind after finding out about my cancer. Today I made some cut-out sugar cookies for 4th of July which I put into the frreezer until I need them. I am hoping I will feel well enough on the 3rd to ice and decorate them. We are hoping to go to my mother's for the 4th--usually I feel some better by Sat. so I am praying that we can go. My sister and youngest brother with their families will be there too. I am trying to get prepared for that trip so I won't have so much to do next week when I'm not feeling well.
I got my new wig styled and wore it yesterday to a play which my daughter was performing in for her college. It didn't seem that so many people were staring, however, it keeps flipping up when I want it to curl under. It is shoulder length and tends to flip up. Today I bought some rollers so am trying to see if that will help. I will finally feel comfortable enough to go to church tomorrow so I am thrilled about that. We'll see what kind of reactions I get. I was afraid that some people might not recognize me but today at Walmart, someone I sort of know, recognized me so that was good. I have a good friend from out of town that was here for a very short time and she just loved my wig. I had fun with it by putting a clip in it to make it look even more normal. The hair stylist said I could even put it in a low pony tail if I wanted. She said to play around with it.
My oldest son started his first job today and luckily, it's not too far from home so if I have to take him or pick him up on days that I don't feel well, I won't have to go too far. I hope it all works out--the transportation part. It's really too far for him to ride a bike or walk and he doesn't have his license yet. Thanks for all of your prayers, love, concern, and encouragement. It sure helps me get through the tough times. Love you all.....
He watches over field and flower and creatures great and small., tending compassionately to their every need.....May He watch over you now, tenderly t0uching you with His healing hands until you feel your best once again.
Three more days before I have chemo treatment number 3!! I am trying to prepare myself for the chemo treatment--physically and mentally. I've been trying to get my home school papers all graded and finally got all the grades written down and report cards done. I feel like I finally accomplished something. I got so behind after finding out about my cancer. Today I made some cut-out sugar cookies for 4th of July which I put into the frreezer until I need them. I am hoping I will feel well enough on the 3rd to ice and decorate them. We are hoping to go to my mother's for the 4th--usually I feel some better by Sat. so I am praying that we can go. My sister and youngest brother with their families will be there too. I am trying to get prepared for that trip so I won't have so much to do next week when I'm not feeling well.
I got my new wig styled and wore it yesterday to a play which my daughter was performing in for her college. It didn't seem that so many people were staring, however, it keeps flipping up when I want it to curl under. It is shoulder length and tends to flip up. Today I bought some rollers so am trying to see if that will help. I will finally feel comfortable enough to go to church tomorrow so I am thrilled about that. We'll see what kind of reactions I get. I was afraid that some people might not recognize me but today at Walmart, someone I sort of know, recognized me so that was good. I have a good friend from out of town that was here for a very short time and she just loved my wig. I had fun with it by putting a clip in it to make it look even more normal. The hair stylist said I could even put it in a low pony tail if I wanted. She said to play around with it.
My oldest son started his first job today and luckily, it's not too far from home so if I have to take him or pick him up on days that I don't feel well, I won't have to go too far. I hope it all works out--the transportation part. It's really too far for him to ride a bike or walk and he doesn't have his license yet. Thanks for all of your prayers, love, concern, and encouragement. It sure helps me get through the tough times. Love you all.....
He watches over field and flower and creatures great and small., tending compassionately to their every need.....May He watch over you now, tenderly t0uching you with His healing hands until you feel your best once again.
Thursday, June 25, 2009
New wig
Psalm 106:1 Praise the Lord. Give thanks to the Lord for He is good; His love endures forever.
I apologize that I've not written in a couple of days. I'm feeling good these days and have been busy. I finally received my new wig that I had ordered from Paula Young's wigs. In fact, for some reason, they sent me 2 of everything I ordered. Sarah says I should keep both wigs for then when I wash it, I would have the other one but I think I will go ahead and send one back for there are days when I don't go to town that I can wash the wig and it will have time to dry. Anyway, Sarah and I worked on the wig all afternoon trying to style it ourselves. I put rollers in it for I wanted it to curl under. The length is about to my shoulder and it keeps flipping up. By evening, it was looking some better so I wore it to church but I think it was doing funny things. It is more blonde than my natural color so the kids noticed it right away. Also, since they knew I was bald, many guessed that it was a wig. They are so funny but they accepted me wig and all. Ahhh, so sweet. I will try to get an appointment to get the new wig styled by the lady who styled my other wigs. Maybe she can get it to do what I want. The bangs are longer than I want too so I'll have her cut them. I hope I can get in before Sunday since I plan to go to church and will wear the new wig.
On Tuesday, I had blood drawn to check to see how thin my blood is. Praise the Lord, it was where it needed to be. So they didn't change my coumadin pill prescription and I can go back 2 weeks now for another blood check. I was happy with that news.
Thanks again for all of your prayers and encouragment as I walk through this journey. I know that in the end, I will be a stronger person and one closer to God. Please pray for my husband as he has not been feeling well this past week. Love you all.....
Today may you be refreshed by God's presence...knowing that He cares and goes before you into each new day.
I apologize that I've not written in a couple of days. I'm feeling good these days and have been busy. I finally received my new wig that I had ordered from Paula Young's wigs. In fact, for some reason, they sent me 2 of everything I ordered. Sarah says I should keep both wigs for then when I wash it, I would have the other one but I think I will go ahead and send one back for there are days when I don't go to town that I can wash the wig and it will have time to dry. Anyway, Sarah and I worked on the wig all afternoon trying to style it ourselves. I put rollers in it for I wanted it to curl under. The length is about to my shoulder and it keeps flipping up. By evening, it was looking some better so I wore it to church but I think it was doing funny things. It is more blonde than my natural color so the kids noticed it right away. Also, since they knew I was bald, many guessed that it was a wig. They are so funny but they accepted me wig and all. Ahhh, so sweet. I will try to get an appointment to get the new wig styled by the lady who styled my other wigs. Maybe she can get it to do what I want. The bangs are longer than I want too so I'll have her cut them. I hope I can get in before Sunday since I plan to go to church and will wear the new wig.
On Tuesday, I had blood drawn to check to see how thin my blood is. Praise the Lord, it was where it needed to be. So they didn't change my coumadin pill prescription and I can go back 2 weeks now for another blood check. I was happy with that news.
Thanks again for all of your prayers and encouragment as I walk through this journey. I know that in the end, I will be a stronger person and one closer to God. Please pray for my husband as he has not been feeling well this past week. Love you all.....
Today may you be refreshed by God's presence...knowing that He cares and goes before you into each new day.
Monday, June 22, 2009
Good Days
Psalm 89:1 I will sing of the Lord's great love forever, with my mouth I will make your faithfulness known through all generations.
It is so nice to have "good days" where I feel almost normal. I have another week of good days then chemo next week. The times I don't feel normal is when I see myself in the mirror and remember that I don't have hair but I'm getting more used to it every day. I am hoping the wig I ordered comes in soon and I hope I like it. I found out today that I will not be getting the wig I wanted from the wig shop here for insurance doesn't cover it and it's pretty expensive so I will have to let go of that dream. But that is okay....for I did order a cheaper wig and hopefully it will do just fine. It is similar in style and I hope the color is right.
God is so great and is such a great provider!!! A sweet friend, Valerie, from my homeschool group brought us a pork loin which we will cook next week when I have chemo and then a neighbor, CJ, called yesterday asking when my next chemo is and is planning to bring a meal the day after my chemo. My kids will appreciate this!!!!
My husband has been sick and I've tried my best to stay away and keep things clean so that I don't get whatever he has. His fever finally broke and hopefully he will be all well soon. I slept in the school room (has a couch in it) but am ready to get back to my own bed. lol. Thanks to all who are praying for me for your prayers are being answered. I feel that things are much better than they would be if I wasn't covered with prayers. Having cancer is tough but there are many other things that are even tougher so I feel blessed for I know that this time of cancer will end and I will be a survivor and go on with life. Thank you God for your gracious love.....
The Lord himself goes before you...do not be discouraged...May it be a source of strength and hope to know that God is always with you.
It is so nice to have "good days" where I feel almost normal. I have another week of good days then chemo next week. The times I don't feel normal is when I see myself in the mirror and remember that I don't have hair but I'm getting more used to it every day. I am hoping the wig I ordered comes in soon and I hope I like it. I found out today that I will not be getting the wig I wanted from the wig shop here for insurance doesn't cover it and it's pretty expensive so I will have to let go of that dream. But that is okay....for I did order a cheaper wig and hopefully it will do just fine. It is similar in style and I hope the color is right.
God is so great and is such a great provider!!! A sweet friend, Valerie, from my homeschool group brought us a pork loin which we will cook next week when I have chemo and then a neighbor, CJ, called yesterday asking when my next chemo is and is planning to bring a meal the day after my chemo. My kids will appreciate this!!!!
My husband has been sick and I've tried my best to stay away and keep things clean so that I don't get whatever he has. His fever finally broke and hopefully he will be all well soon. I slept in the school room (has a couch in it) but am ready to get back to my own bed. lol. Thanks to all who are praying for me for your prayers are being answered. I feel that things are much better than they would be if I wasn't covered with prayers. Having cancer is tough but there are many other things that are even tougher so I feel blessed for I know that this time of cancer will end and I will be a survivor and go on with life. Thank you God for your gracious love.....
The Lord himself goes before you...do not be discouraged...May it be a source of strength and hope to know that God is always with you.
Saturday, June 20, 2009
Trip
Matthew 11:28 Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest.
Ahh, it was so nice to take a trip to my mom's and just have a time of rest and enjoyment. I took the boys with me and they had a nice time swimming and watching lots of TV. They also helped my mom put together a water fountain and did some hauling off stones, etc. My mom and I painted frogs that she keeps outside and they were in pretty bad shape due to the wear and tear from the sun and weather elements. We had a great time visiting and painting. Thanks mom for the fun time and all the wonderful meals. My sweet friend, Cindy, from high school , came over to visit for a short time. She was so encouraging and even thought I was cute in my 
pink turban that I was wearing. I tend to disagree but it's so nice to hear those kind of comments. Thanks for coming over, Cindy--love you!!! The trip was short but refreshing. It turn out to be a blessing in a way for my husband and Sarah both got sick while I was gone. I would have wanted to be with them to care for them but in my condition where my white blood count goes down, I don't need to be around sick people. God protected me from them. I had blood drawn immediately before I went on my trip and since we've not heard from the nurse, I am assuming that my white blood counts didn't go down in the dangerous level this time. That means that neulasta shot that I had the day after chemo worked. Praise God!!!
pink turban that I was wearing. I tend to disagree but it's so nice to hear those kind of comments. Thanks for coming over, Cindy--love you!!! The trip was short but refreshing. It turn out to be a blessing in a way for my husband and Sarah both got sick while I was gone. I would have wanted to be with them to care for them but in my condition where my white blood count goes down, I don't need to be around sick people. God protected me from them. I had blood drawn immediately before I went on my trip and since we've not heard from the nurse, I am assuming that my white blood counts didn't go down in the dangerous level this time. That means that neulasta shot that I had the day after chemo worked. Praise God!!!I received a beautiful gift right before I went on my trip. Another sweet friend, Kay, from Mississippi whom I've known for 25 years or so, made me a beautiful quilt that has scripture verses from Psalms on it. It is perfect to take with me to chemo (I get cold while getting chemo) for it's a lap size quilt. Kay used to send me a verse a day when I was first diagnosed with cancer. She's been since an encourager and God has used her to lift me up spiritually!!! Thanks Kay for the lovely quilt. I will treasure it forever!!! I posted the quilt which you can see in the paragraph prior to this one.
You are all so sweet and kind. It's amazing how God uses people to encourage me in different ways and at different times. It gives me rest in my soul!!!! Love you all........
Psalm 37 Rest in the Lord and wati patiently for Him. (on my quilt)
Thursday, June 18, 2009
Blessings
Proverbs 10:6 Blessings crown the head of the righteous,......
I am feeling blessed today. Let me share some of these blessings. Yesterday, Wednesday, was one tiring day and very busy. But...I made it!!!! I took my son, Brandon, to a small town about 1 1/2 hours away for a golf tournament. They ran out of golf carts by the time we got there so I thought....oh, no, I'm going to have to walk this course in sandals. However, God is so good for one boy had his parents and older brother gthere so they rented 2 golf carts and they let me ride with the older brother. Well, that was another blessing for this older brother who was about to turn 19 years was very friendly, talkative and he taught me so much about golf. I don't think I could have walked much of that course so sure did enjoy the ride. This time I wore my wig and denim hat which was cute and I felt more comfortable that way especially since it was quite windy. That was a blessing too. By the way, Brandon did much better at this tourament. In fact he made the goal I set for him which he didn't think he could do so I owed him a Dairy Queen blizzard which I promised as a reward. We stopped and got one.on the way home. I ordered the Brownie batter one and there were no brownie bits so I got my courage together and told the manager and she saw that it was just batter. I only wanted some brownie bits but she made me a whole new one!!!! I wasn't sure if I could eat it but I did. Yummy ---lol
We got home and I was so exhausted. But I wanted to go to church since I've not gone in a long time. God gave me the strength to get there and help out with the kids. They were so cute for I decided not to wear the wig but to just wear a scarf with it tied to the side. I looked like a pirate. lol. The other children workers all know I have cancer and most of the kids know so I felt comfortable enough to go that way.The kids were all so cute for some would come right up to me and ask "Are you bald?". One of our workers is a man who is bald so I told them that I looked like Mr. Larry but he was cuter. lol. One boy wanted to peek under my scarf but I said no but I told him to touch my head so he did. Some were shy and would look at me so curiously especially the ones that are newer but the others just accepted me as I was. What a blessing those kids were.
Today I have my mid labwork to be done to see how my white blood counts are doing and other blood counts too. I hope all is well there. Then after I pick up Christopher from tennis, the boys and I are going off to a town 2 hours away to see my mom for a one night stay. I haven't spent the night anywhere since I started chemo. Sure was easy to pack---no blow dryer, no curling iron nor shampoo or creme rinse, no brushes, etc . All that hair stuff didn't have to go except hair coverings. Iit's amazing how much hair stuff us women pack to go on a trip. My suitcase almost looks empty. lol. Well, my biggest blessing is knowing God loves me and that he saved me. He is walking with me every step of this journey. My next blessing is my friends and family who love and have encouraged me through all of this. Love you all.......
God gently picks up every care and in our need He's always there.
Psalm 143:1 Hear my prayer, O Lord...You are faithful to your promises.
I am feeling blessed today. Let me share some of these blessings. Yesterday, Wednesday, was one tiring day and very busy. But...I made it!!!! I took my son, Brandon, to a small town about 1 1/2 hours away for a golf tournament. They ran out of golf carts by the time we got there so I thought....oh, no, I'm going to have to walk this course in sandals. However, God is so good for one boy had his parents and older brother gthere so they rented 2 golf carts and they let me ride with the older brother. Well, that was another blessing for this older brother who was about to turn 19 years was very friendly, talkative and he taught me so much about golf. I don't think I could have walked much of that course so sure did enjoy the ride. This time I wore my wig and denim hat which was cute and I felt more comfortable that way especially since it was quite windy. That was a blessing too. By the way, Brandon did much better at this tourament. In fact he made the goal I set for him which he didn't think he could do so I owed him a Dairy Queen blizzard which I promised as a reward. We stopped and got one.on the way home. I ordered the Brownie batter one and there were no brownie bits so I got my courage together and told the manager and she saw that it was just batter. I only wanted some brownie bits but she made me a whole new one!!!! I wasn't sure if I could eat it but I did. Yummy ---lol
We got home and I was so exhausted. But I wanted to go to church since I've not gone in a long time. God gave me the strength to get there and help out with the kids. They were so cute for I decided not to wear the wig but to just wear a scarf with it tied to the side. I looked like a pirate. lol. The other children workers all know I have cancer and most of the kids know so I felt comfortable enough to go that way.The kids were all so cute for some would come right up to me and ask "Are you bald?". One of our workers is a man who is bald so I told them that I looked like Mr. Larry but he was cuter. lol. One boy wanted to peek under my scarf but I said no but I told him to touch my head so he did. Some were shy and would look at me so curiously especially the ones that are newer but the others just accepted me as I was. What a blessing those kids were.
Today I have my mid labwork to be done to see how my white blood counts are doing and other blood counts too. I hope all is well there. Then after I pick up Christopher from tennis, the boys and I are going off to a town 2 hours away to see my mom for a one night stay. I haven't spent the night anywhere since I started chemo. Sure was easy to pack---no blow dryer, no curling iron nor shampoo or creme rinse, no brushes, etc . All that hair stuff didn't have to go except hair coverings. Iit's amazing how much hair stuff us women pack to go on a trip. My suitcase almost looks empty. lol. Well, my biggest blessing is knowing God loves me and that he saved me. He is walking with me every step of this journey. My next blessing is my friends and family who love and have encouraged me through all of this. Love you all.......
God gently picks up every care and in our need He's always there.
Psalm 143:1 Hear my prayer, O Lord...You are faithful to your promises.
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Great day
Psalm 73:28 But as for me, it is good to be near God. I have made the Sovereign Lord my refuge; I will tell of all your deeds.
Yesterday I went out of town for the first time since starting chemo. I drove Brandon to a golf tournament about 2 1/2 hours away. I had planned to explore the little town but instead, I stayed and rented a golf cart. I've never watched a golf game, nor drove a golf cart, or even cared about golf. However, I did it and actually had fun (and learned some things about golf). The golf course had tons of large pecan trees so I would drive from shade to shade to keep out of the heat. I didn't even bring sunscreen for I wasn't planning on being in the sun. Luckily, it was only 92 degrees and it didn't feel hot. I made friends with an older lady who was with her grandson and she was so sweet. I told her I had cancer but we didn't really talk about it but she was concerned that I didn't get too hot. I'm sure she figured I was wearing a wig but never mentioned it. Speaking of the wig---it was breezy so the 'hair' got messed up --lol. I feel it is so fake but just had to go on with it. It fits tight on my head so was not afraid of it blowing off. Can you imagine the gasps of people if my wig blew off. lol That is a funny picture but hope it never, ever happens. My bald head is quite white!!! As soon as we got in the car to go home, I had Brandon take off my wig and quickly slipped on a comfortable denim hat that my friend, Melissa gave me. Figured no one could tell I was bald while driving. I had worn that wig for 9 hours and was quite tired of it. I wore it again today as I ran lots of errands. The librarian thought I had such a cute new hairstyle that made me look younger. lol. I didn't tell her that I had cancer so she probably has no idea it was a wig. Then I saw someone I knew at Academy store but I don't think she could place who I was. I don't know her well enough to really say much. I did order another wig so can't wait for it to come. Probably will have to get it styled too. I talked to my onocologist's receptionist today about finding the cranial prosthetic code for insurance to pay for the really cute wig here in town. She thinks the nurse might be able to get it for me and will let me know on thursday when I come in to get blood drawn.
Today I had my coumadin level checked. It keeps coming down which means my blood is getting thicker. It's barely in the range the dr. wants it in but every time I come in, they up my dosage but my levels keep coming down. The nurse is a little worried and we can't figure what is causing it to be thicker. Last week I was sick with chemo so didn't eat hardly any vegetables which could cause my blood to be thicker so obviously it is not food nor any meds for I had them okay anything I take. So, my dosage was upped again and hopefully next week it will be okay.
I go out of town again tomorrow for another golf tournament--only an hour away this time. Then on Thursday, I am going to my mother's for a night and that is 2 hours away. Thanks for all of your prayers. God is good to me. I am feeling great except for my tonuge---feels like it's been cut--and my taste buds aren't quite normal yet. I am happy that I have good days. I used to think that cancer patients on chemo were sick all the time but now, I have found out by experience that is not true. We do have good days in between the chemo. I am lucky for some ladies in my support group take chemo every other week so they only get one good week. Love you all.......
Every challenge is an opportunity , a chance to grow, a lesson to learn, a part of life.
Yesterday I went out of town for the first time since starting chemo. I drove Brandon to a golf tournament about 2 1/2 hours away. I had planned to explore the little town but instead, I stayed and rented a golf cart. I've never watched a golf game, nor drove a golf cart, or even cared about golf. However, I did it and actually had fun (and learned some things about golf). The golf course had tons of large pecan trees so I would drive from shade to shade to keep out of the heat. I didn't even bring sunscreen for I wasn't planning on being in the sun. Luckily, it was only 92 degrees and it didn't feel hot. I made friends with an older lady who was with her grandson and she was so sweet. I told her I had cancer but we didn't really talk about it but she was concerned that I didn't get too hot. I'm sure she figured I was wearing a wig but never mentioned it. Speaking of the wig---it was breezy so the 'hair' got messed up --lol. I feel it is so fake but just had to go on with it. It fits tight on my head so was not afraid of it blowing off. Can you imagine the gasps of people if my wig blew off. lol That is a funny picture but hope it never, ever happens. My bald head is quite white!!! As soon as we got in the car to go home, I had Brandon take off my wig and quickly slipped on a comfortable denim hat that my friend, Melissa gave me. Figured no one could tell I was bald while driving. I had worn that wig for 9 hours and was quite tired of it. I wore it again today as I ran lots of errands. The librarian thought I had such a cute new hairstyle that made me look younger. lol. I didn't tell her that I had cancer so she probably has no idea it was a wig. Then I saw someone I knew at Academy store but I don't think she could place who I was. I don't know her well enough to really say much. I did order another wig so can't wait for it to come. Probably will have to get it styled too. I talked to my onocologist's receptionist today about finding the cranial prosthetic code for insurance to pay for the really cute wig here in town. She thinks the nurse might be able to get it for me and will let me know on thursday when I come in to get blood drawn.
Today I had my coumadin level checked. It keeps coming down which means my blood is getting thicker. It's barely in the range the dr. wants it in but every time I come in, they up my dosage but my levels keep coming down. The nurse is a little worried and we can't figure what is causing it to be thicker. Last week I was sick with chemo so didn't eat hardly any vegetables which could cause my blood to be thicker so obviously it is not food nor any meds for I had them okay anything I take. So, my dosage was upped again and hopefully next week it will be okay.
I go out of town again tomorrow for another golf tournament--only an hour away this time. Then on Thursday, I am going to my mother's for a night and that is 2 hours away. Thanks for all of your prayers. God is good to me. I am feeling great except for my tonuge---feels like it's been cut--and my taste buds aren't quite normal yet. I am happy that I have good days. I used to think that cancer patients on chemo were sick all the time but now, I have found out by experience that is not true. We do have good days in between the chemo. I am lucky for some ladies in my support group take chemo every other week so they only get one good week. Love you all.......
Every challenge is an opportunity , a chance to grow, a lesson to learn, a part of life.
Sunday, June 14, 2009
Wigs & upcoming trip
Philippians 4:19 And my God will meet all your needs according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus.
Wigs, wigs, wigs......it seems I'm obsessed about them. lol. Okay, today I found one on Paulayoung.com that I am going to order. It's called the Monica wig. I tried ordering it but it didn't work so might have to retry or call tomorrow or rethink this. I thought that maybe I will go ahead and order one from Paula young and then if I can get the wig from the wig shop here in town with insurance paying for it, I will have 2 that I like. Sometimes you have to wash the wigs so at least I will have one to wear if one is in the process of drying. I was disappointed that my order didn't go through today but will try soon. I will be out of town tomorrow taking Brandon to a golf tournament. This will be the first one I go to and it's in a very small town. I know that I cannot stay out in the heat so hope to discover some shops to visit or maybe just read a book in the clubhouse. Maybe there will be other parents hanging out too. I will watch in the early hours while cool. It's over 2 hours to drive there so we have to leave at 6 am!!!!!
I've had a nice relaxing day today. Just did some laundry and read a book. I didn't go to church for I wasn't comfortable in wearing the wig I have to church nor wearing just a scarf or something. I hated to miss church but I did go to lifechurch.tv with Teresa and her sister, Shirley. I really like the sermons at this church!!!! They are doing a series right now using different preachers from around the world and the one today was great. His topic was "God is Able" and of course, I thought about how God is able to get me through this journey with cancer. He used the five senses in how they can be used against us and how we can through God overcome those obstacles. It was great. I really needed to hear it. Hope you all had a wonderful Sunday. Love you all.......
Christ is running the show. Right now. A leaf just fell from a tree in the Alps. Christ caused it to do so. A newborn baby in India inhaled for he first time. Jesus measured the breath. The Lord knows everything you're going through, and He cares very deeply about you.
Luke 21:18 Every detail of your body and soul....is in my care;nothing of you will be lost
Wigs, wigs, wigs......it seems I'm obsessed about them. lol. Okay, today I found one on Paulayoung.com that I am going to order. It's called the Monica wig. I tried ordering it but it didn't work so might have to retry or call tomorrow or rethink this. I thought that maybe I will go ahead and order one from Paula young and then if I can get the wig from the wig shop here in town with insurance paying for it, I will have 2 that I like. Sometimes you have to wash the wigs so at least I will have one to wear if one is in the process of drying. I was disappointed that my order didn't go through today but will try soon. I will be out of town tomorrow taking Brandon to a golf tournament. This will be the first one I go to and it's in a very small town. I know that I cannot stay out in the heat so hope to discover some shops to visit or maybe just read a book in the clubhouse. Maybe there will be other parents hanging out too. I will watch in the early hours while cool. It's over 2 hours to drive there so we have to leave at 6 am!!!!!
I've had a nice relaxing day today. Just did some laundry and read a book. I didn't go to church for I wasn't comfortable in wearing the wig I have to church nor wearing just a scarf or something. I hated to miss church but I did go to lifechurch.tv with Teresa and her sister, Shirley. I really like the sermons at this church!!!! They are doing a series right now using different preachers from around the world and the one today was great. His topic was "God is Able" and of course, I thought about how God is able to get me through this journey with cancer. He used the five senses in how they can be used against us and how we can through God overcome those obstacles. It was great. I really needed to hear it. Hope you all had a wonderful Sunday. Love you all.......
Christ is running the show. Right now. A leaf just fell from a tree in the Alps. Christ caused it to do so. A newborn baby in India inhaled for he first time. Jesus measured the breath. The Lord knows everything you're going through, and He cares very deeply about you.
Luke 21:18 Every detail of your body and soul....is in my care;nothing of you will be lost
Saturday, June 13, 2009
Chemo Day 5
Psalm 86:12-13 I will praise you, O Lord my God, with all my heart; I will glorify your name forever. For great is your love toward me; you have delivered me from the depths of the grave.
Well, I don't feel like I've actually been down in the grave as in the verse above says, but I was down and I feel that I've been delivered from the awful sick feeling--praise God. I'm not one who likes to be down and sick so each treatment, I dread having to go through the sickness but I know that in the end, it will be worth it. If this is what it takes, then I'll go through it. There are worse things to go through so I feel lucky that I have these few side effects. All I have left is the yuckky taste in my mouth and slight tiredness but not bad. I was able to go to the grocery all by myself and I bought alot of groceries. I felt funny for I was wearing my wig and felt that everyone could tell. Didn't see a single person I knew. I know I will get over this self conciousness eventually. I am still hoping to get a new wig. One that will be more me....lol. I did some housework too after a long rest from shopping. Kids were gone all day so that was nice for me---just to clean and relax by reading a book. I am getting used to going bald at home at times for it gets so hot and I forget that I have my hats off and the kids come in but they are getting to where they don't say anything anymore. Larry is so good and never says anything but seems to understand the need to go just bald at times. lol. But you my friends, will never see me bald---my sister did but she was here taking care of me. Love you Khristi!!! Thanks to all who sent me encouraging cards lately. I am going to start writing some of the things these cards say instead of ending with a verse for I like what these cards say too. Hope you enjoy them too. Love you all...even those who follow my blog that I don't personally know but you send me comments that are so encouraging. Thanks.....
God knows when the hours grow weary and patience is hard to come by. He feels every pain we experience, He sees every tear that we cry. So give Him your hurts and your worries: He's waiting each burden to share. He'll strengthen , uplift and uphold you, and wrap you up warm in His care.
Well, I don't feel like I've actually been down in the grave as in the verse above says, but I was down and I feel that I've been delivered from the awful sick feeling--praise God. I'm not one who likes to be down and sick so each treatment, I dread having to go through the sickness but I know that in the end, it will be worth it. If this is what it takes, then I'll go through it. There are worse things to go through so I feel lucky that I have these few side effects. All I have left is the yuckky taste in my mouth and slight tiredness but not bad. I was able to go to the grocery all by myself and I bought alot of groceries. I felt funny for I was wearing my wig and felt that everyone could tell. Didn't see a single person I knew. I know I will get over this self conciousness eventually. I am still hoping to get a new wig. One that will be more me....lol. I did some housework too after a long rest from shopping. Kids were gone all day so that was nice for me---just to clean and relax by reading a book. I am getting used to going bald at home at times for it gets so hot and I forget that I have my hats off and the kids come in but they are getting to where they don't say anything anymore. Larry is so good and never says anything but seems to understand the need to go just bald at times. lol. But you my friends, will never see me bald---my sister did but she was here taking care of me. Love you Khristi!!! Thanks to all who sent me encouraging cards lately. I am going to start writing some of the things these cards say instead of ending with a verse for I like what these cards say too. Hope you enjoy them too. Love you all...even those who follow my blog that I don't personally know but you send me comments that are so encouraging. Thanks.....
God knows when the hours grow weary and patience is hard to come by. He feels every pain we experience, He sees every tear that we cry. So give Him your hurts and your worries: He's waiting each burden to share. He'll strengthen , uplift and uphold you, and wrap you up warm in His care.
Friday, June 12, 2009
Chemo Day 3 & 4
Psalm 91:1-2 He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadows of the Almighty. I will say of the Lord, He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in who I trust.
Chemo Day 3 was not a good day for me. I was so tired, had lots of minor bone pain, so I just stayed in bed most of the day. My dear hubby picked Christopher up from tennis (11 am) and stayed home the rest of the day. However, today is better. I have no bone pain at all. I am taking Tylenol every 8 hours to help out with that. I am still tired but not as bad as yesterday. My stomach was hurting but feeling better now. I feel weak probably due to not eating much yesterday or the first day of chemo. I will still say that this round is somewhat better than the first round. Praise God for that. I know that this yuckiness will end soon and I will feel so much better. God is with me through all of this. I am hoping to get a new wig and the wig place is trying to find the product code that insurance is asking for. I hope they can figure it out soon. If not, I will look online for a new wig. I really do not like the one I have especially after looking for new ones. I know that not having hair isn't the worse thing in life, but it's amazing how much our hair tells others about us. I am not comfortable in a wig that isn't really me. But I found one that looks like something I would really wear so I understand more how important our hair is to us women. I won't be having hair for quite a while so I really should try to have a wig that I won't mind wearing and it won't be such a big deal. I hope that makes sense. My mind seems a little muddled right now. lol. People call that 'chemo' brain. They say chemo messes up your thoughts. As if I needed anything else to mess up my thoughts. lol. Well, have a great day and I am so thankful to you all. Yesterday, I received so many cards and even 2 gifts in the mail. I really needed those encouraging words since it was a bad day. Thanks to you all.....
God smiles when we trust Him completely......
Romans 15:13 May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in Him
Chemo Day 3 was not a good day for me. I was so tired, had lots of minor bone pain, so I just stayed in bed most of the day. My dear hubby picked Christopher up from tennis (11 am) and stayed home the rest of the day. However, today is better. I have no bone pain at all. I am taking Tylenol every 8 hours to help out with that. I am still tired but not as bad as yesterday. My stomach was hurting but feeling better now. I feel weak probably due to not eating much yesterday or the first day of chemo. I will still say that this round is somewhat better than the first round. Praise God for that. I know that this yuckiness will end soon and I will feel so much better. God is with me through all of this. I am hoping to get a new wig and the wig place is trying to find the product code that insurance is asking for. I hope they can figure it out soon. If not, I will look online for a new wig. I really do not like the one I have especially after looking for new ones. I know that not having hair isn't the worse thing in life, but it's amazing how much our hair tells others about us. I am not comfortable in a wig that isn't really me. But I found one that looks like something I would really wear so I understand more how important our hair is to us women. I won't be having hair for quite a while so I really should try to have a wig that I won't mind wearing and it won't be such a big deal. I hope that makes sense. My mind seems a little muddled right now. lol. People call that 'chemo' brain. They say chemo messes up your thoughts. As if I needed anything else to mess up my thoughts. lol. Well, have a great day and I am so thankful to you all. Yesterday, I received so many cards and even 2 gifts in the mail. I really needed those encouraging words since it was a bad day. Thanks to you all.....
God smiles when we trust Him completely......
Romans 15:13 May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in Him
Thursday, June 11, 2009
Chemo Day 2
Psalm 73:25-26 Whom have I in heaven but you? And earth has nothing I desire besides you. My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.
Yesterday was day 2 and it was a good day. I had no nausea/vomiting and was able to eat small amounts. I was a little tired, probably from lack of sleep the night before. I went to the chemo room to have my neulasta shot which is to boost my white blood counts so that it won't go so low like last time. I called my insurance to be sure they would pay for it for it's very, very expensive. Luckily, they said yes and I'm up to where they pay 100% of everything now. Praise God!! After I received the shot, my sister and I went to a wig shop for I really do not care for the wigs I already have. They were so helpful and she said that insurance may pay for the wig as a prosthetic so I will call today for I found a wig I like but it costs $256. If insurance doesn't pay, I will continue to look online for a wig that is cheaper but at least I learned alot about wigs from the lady at the wig shop. My sister left at 4 pm for I was doing so well. I started to fall alseep around 6 pm because I was so tired but I did eat a little dinner around 8 pm then back to sleep. lol. During the night I woke up and realize that I am experiencing some bone pain from the shot. It feels so sore and if my shoulder is touched or even my face, ouch, it is tender. I am taking Tylenol for it so it could be worse if I wasn't taking the meds. I'm also feel pretty fatigued today. I heard that sometimes the 3rd day could be the worse. I had forgotten about that until this morning. My sweet neighbor took Christopher to tennis lessons and my dear hubby is going to pick him up, go to the grocery store, then come home and take care of me. His work is so good to let him off whenever he needs to help me out. Praise God for a good boss. I am tired so going to sign off. Thanks for your continual prayers. You will all be blessed!!! Love you.....
Psalm 68:19-20 Praise be to the Lord, to God our Saviour, who daily bears our burdens. Our God is a God who saves; from the Sovereign Lord comes escape from death.
Yesterday was day 2 and it was a good day. I had no nausea/vomiting and was able to eat small amounts. I was a little tired, probably from lack of sleep the night before. I went to the chemo room to have my neulasta shot which is to boost my white blood counts so that it won't go so low like last time. I called my insurance to be sure they would pay for it for it's very, very expensive. Luckily, they said yes and I'm up to where they pay 100% of everything now. Praise God!! After I received the shot, my sister and I went to a wig shop for I really do not care for the wigs I already have. They were so helpful and she said that insurance may pay for the wig as a prosthetic so I will call today for I found a wig I like but it costs $256. If insurance doesn't pay, I will continue to look online for a wig that is cheaper but at least I learned alot about wigs from the lady at the wig shop. My sister left at 4 pm for I was doing so well. I started to fall alseep around 6 pm because I was so tired but I did eat a little dinner around 8 pm then back to sleep. lol. During the night I woke up and realize that I am experiencing some bone pain from the shot. It feels so sore and if my shoulder is touched or even my face, ouch, it is tender. I am taking Tylenol for it so it could be worse if I wasn't taking the meds. I'm also feel pretty fatigued today. I heard that sometimes the 3rd day could be the worse. I had forgotten about that until this morning. My sweet neighbor took Christopher to tennis lessons and my dear hubby is going to pick him up, go to the grocery store, then come home and take care of me. His work is so good to let him off whenever he needs to help me out. Praise God for a good boss. I am tired so going to sign off. Thanks for your continual prayers. You will all be blessed!!! Love you.....
Psalm 68:19-20 Praise be to the Lord, to God our Saviour, who daily bears our burdens. Our God is a God who saves; from the Sovereign Lord comes escape from death.
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Chemo Day 1
Psalm 4:1 Amswer me when I call to you, O my righteous God. Give me relief from my distress, be merciful to me and hear my prayer.
I meant to write last night but was too tired and not feeling well. Yesterday was my 2nd Chemo treatment. My dear sister took me the dr. and outpatient chemo. My blood counts were all normal so I was happy about that. The dr. changed the anti-nausea meds given to me in the IV prior to chemo but I still have the same oral pills at home. He also added benedryl which should have made me sleepy but it really didn't--maybe a tad drowsy but not enough to put me to sleep. lol. My dear friend, Heather, came up to the chemo room and we played a card game. She brought me some peach tea from Sonic for I do like peach tea. Thanks Heather!!! After she left, my sister and I played phase ten(another card game). It sure made the time go by faster when having fun. lol. The nurses had problems with my chemo for the IV pump kept malfunctioning so it took probably an extra hour. After getting home, Sarah had made me some chocolate chip cookies so had to eat a few. I felt pretty good stomach wise but drowsy so went to bed. About 3 hours later, I did get very sick. I was so disappointed for I had hoped I wouldn't get sick this time. However, it's the only time I got sick. I've had some nausea but mainly just stomach pain. I didn't sleep well last night so might need a good nap today. I am feeling pretty good right now--able to eat some applesauce and crackers this morning. I will just take it easy so I don't end up getting sick again. Last night, everytime my stomach started really hurting I would call out to God and sometimes I would just tell the pain to go away in Jesus's name and my pain would go away so I could sneak in another hour of sleep. Of course then I would praise God for taking the pain away. Today I am to go back to the chemo room to get a very expensive shot called Neulasta. It is to boost my bone marrow to make WBC's and I hear that it can cause severe back pain. Many people take Claritan and Aleve (I can't Aleve so will take Tylenol) to help decrease the pain so I have my claritan ready to take here in a couple of hours. Pray that I won't have the back pain and that there will not be any more nausea. Thanks for your prayers. Love to you all......
Psalm 57:1 Have mercy on me ,O God, have mercy on me, for in you my soul takes refuge. I will take refuge in the shadow of your wings until the diaster has passed.
I meant to write last night but was too tired and not feeling well. Yesterday was my 2nd Chemo treatment. My dear sister took me the dr. and outpatient chemo. My blood counts were all normal so I was happy about that. The dr. changed the anti-nausea meds given to me in the IV prior to chemo but I still have the same oral pills at home. He also added benedryl which should have made me sleepy but it really didn't--maybe a tad drowsy but not enough to put me to sleep. lol. My dear friend, Heather, came up to the chemo room and we played a card game. She brought me some peach tea from Sonic for I do like peach tea. Thanks Heather!!! After she left, my sister and I played phase ten(another card game). It sure made the time go by faster when having fun. lol. The nurses had problems with my chemo for the IV pump kept malfunctioning so it took probably an extra hour. After getting home, Sarah had made me some chocolate chip cookies so had to eat a few. I felt pretty good stomach wise but drowsy so went to bed. About 3 hours later, I did get very sick. I was so disappointed for I had hoped I wouldn't get sick this time. However, it's the only time I got sick. I've had some nausea but mainly just stomach pain. I didn't sleep well last night so might need a good nap today. I am feeling pretty good right now--able to eat some applesauce and crackers this morning. I will just take it easy so I don't end up getting sick again. Last night, everytime my stomach started really hurting I would call out to God and sometimes I would just tell the pain to go away in Jesus's name and my pain would go away so I could sneak in another hour of sleep. Of course then I would praise God for taking the pain away. Today I am to go back to the chemo room to get a very expensive shot called Neulasta. It is to boost my bone marrow to make WBC's and I hear that it can cause severe back pain. Many people take Claritan and Aleve (I can't Aleve so will take Tylenol) to help decrease the pain so I have my claritan ready to take here in a couple of hours. Pray that I won't have the back pain and that there will not be any more nausea. Thanks for your prayers. Love to you all......
Psalm 57:1 Have mercy on me ,O God, have mercy on me, for in you my soul takes refuge. I will take refuge in the shadow of your wings until the diaster has passed.
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
Time for Chemo
Psalm 86:1-2 Hear, O Lord, and answer me, for I am poor and needy. Guard my life, for I am devoted to you. You are my God; save your servant who trusts in you.
Today I go for my second chemo treatment. I am praying so hard that I don't get so sick as last time with the nausea and vomiting. I am going to ask the dr. to change my anti-nausea medicine. I took an anti-nausea med last night to get something in my body already. I hear that many ladies do that (from my online support group). My wonderful sister came yesterday evening to be with me today and however many days I might need her. My friend, Heather, is coming to visit me in the chemo room so that will be fun. Keeping things normal for my kids is the hard part. Christopher has tennis lessons today so my neighbor is taking him , then my husband will pick him up and take him to lunch then bring him to me to the chemo room so that we can take him home. Brandon has his first golf tournament tomorrow here in town so Larry will take him there and my friend, Marnie , will pick him up and bring him home. Sure is nice to have friends willing to help with the kids.
Well, I'm starting to see some advantages to being bald. Yes, there are some. One thing, it doesn't take long to get ready anymore for there isn't much to do with my hair except to throw the wig on or a headcovering. lol. It used to take me a long time for I would wash my hair an hour or more before going anywhere so it could partially dry and then I would blowdry it, curl it, and fix it. I can now just put away the blow dryer and curling iron and even the brushes. I don't need those things to clutter my drawers anymore. lol. Yesterday, some dogs came into our yard and they had tags on so I called the owners. The lady came and Brandon, (bless his heart) told me to hurry and put my wig on. I was wearing a bright pink turban thing. He was embarrassed for me but I said, no, I was going to wear what I had on. I don't mind wearing headcoverings around some people. I did wear my wig yesterday when I went into town to get blood drawn and go into Walmart. I was nervous about it for fear that people could tell it was a wig. A nurse friend saw me and said "I like your haircut!". Wow, guess she didn't know. That made me feel better. I wasn't sure what I wanted to wear to chemo treatment today but decided that I would wear my wig. Well, please pray for me today as I have chemo that the side effects won't be so bad. Love you all......
Psalm 55:22 Cast all your cares on the Lord and He will sustain you; He will never let the righteous fall.
Today I go for my second chemo treatment. I am praying so hard that I don't get so sick as last time with the nausea and vomiting. I am going to ask the dr. to change my anti-nausea medicine. I took an anti-nausea med last night to get something in my body already. I hear that many ladies do that (from my online support group). My wonderful sister came yesterday evening to be with me today and however many days I might need her. My friend, Heather, is coming to visit me in the chemo room so that will be fun. Keeping things normal for my kids is the hard part. Christopher has tennis lessons today so my neighbor is taking him , then my husband will pick him up and take him to lunch then bring him to me to the chemo room so that we can take him home. Brandon has his first golf tournament tomorrow here in town so Larry will take him there and my friend, Marnie , will pick him up and bring him home. Sure is nice to have friends willing to help with the kids.
Well, I'm starting to see some advantages to being bald. Yes, there are some. One thing, it doesn't take long to get ready anymore for there isn't much to do with my hair except to throw the wig on or a headcovering. lol. It used to take me a long time for I would wash my hair an hour or more before going anywhere so it could partially dry and then I would blowdry it, curl it, and fix it. I can now just put away the blow dryer and curling iron and even the brushes. I don't need those things to clutter my drawers anymore. lol. Yesterday, some dogs came into our yard and they had tags on so I called the owners. The lady came and Brandon, (bless his heart) told me to hurry and put my wig on. I was wearing a bright pink turban thing. He was embarrassed for me but I said, no, I was going to wear what I had on. I don't mind wearing headcoverings around some people. I did wear my wig yesterday when I went into town to get blood drawn and go into Walmart. I was nervous about it for fear that people could tell it was a wig. A nurse friend saw me and said "I like your haircut!". Wow, guess she didn't know. That made me feel better. I wasn't sure what I wanted to wear to chemo treatment today but decided that I would wear my wig. Well, please pray for me today as I have chemo that the side effects won't be so bad. Love you all......
Psalm 55:22 Cast all your cares on the Lord and He will sustain you; He will never let the righteous fall.
Sunday, June 7, 2009
Hair
Psalm 86:3-4 Have mercy on me, O Lord, for I call to you all day long. Bring joy to your servant, for to you, O Lord, I lift up my soul.
Today was the day!! My hair was coming out in clumps especially if I pulled on it and I just couldn't keep my hands away from my hair. I was getting bald spots so I finally caved in and asked Larry to please shave my hair off. He agreed to to it but you could tell he really hated to do it. We went outside so the hair could just fall to the ground. I am officially bald now. I had Christopher take pictures but I hate them....so at this point, I won't be posting any of those pictures. I don't like the way I look bald. I didn't cry but got a little teary eyed. I will be okay but I really do not like seeing myself without hair. Guess I'll get used to it soon. I immediately took a shower then put a little headcover on my head. It was hot so later I put on a hat then I tried a scarf. The scarf is better but I don't like my big ears. lol. Oh, well......beauty is inside and not what is on the outside. This too will pass.....please, Lord, let it pass quickly. I will wear my wig tomorrow when I go out. I have to have blood drawn for my blood counts and my coumadin level so 2 places I have to go but luckily, they are in the same building and even on the same floor. Chemo treatment coming up on Tuesday. My sweet sister is coming tomorrow to help me through this next treatment. Love you all.......
Philippians 4:13 I can do everything through him who gives me strength.
Today was the day!! My hair was coming out in clumps especially if I pulled on it and I just couldn't keep my hands away from my hair. I was getting bald spots so I finally caved in and asked Larry to please shave my hair off. He agreed to to it but you could tell he really hated to do it. We went outside so the hair could just fall to the ground. I am officially bald now. I had Christopher take pictures but I hate them....so at this point, I won't be posting any of those pictures. I don't like the way I look bald. I didn't cry but got a little teary eyed. I will be okay but I really do not like seeing myself without hair. Guess I'll get used to it soon. I immediately took a shower then put a little headcover on my head. It was hot so later I put on a hat then I tried a scarf. The scarf is better but I don't like my big ears. lol. Oh, well......beauty is inside and not what is on the outside. This too will pass.....please, Lord, let it pass quickly. I will wear my wig tomorrow when I go out. I have to have blood drawn for my blood counts and my coumadin level so 2 places I have to go but luckily, they are in the same building and even on the same floor. Chemo treatment coming up on Tuesday. My sweet sister is coming tomorrow to help me through this next treatment. Love you all.......
Philippians 4:13 I can do everything through him who gives me strength.
Saturday, June 6, 2009
Relay for Life
Hebrews 12:1-2 Therefore, since we are surrounced by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out of us. Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.
Yesterday evening, my husband and I took our son to a tennis social then we went out to eat. We had nothing to do afterwards so was driving around town when I suddenly remembered that the relay for life was going on. So, we went there and it was just starting when we arrived. We watched the cancer survivors walk a lap around the track. I want to be there next year as a survivor walking around the track. Then they had 3 cancer survivor speakers. They all inspired me and touched me such an awesome way. I want to be like them, battling this cancer and being happy at the same time. The first 2 speakers are both terminal and what a great spirit they had--both young and with young children. I am so fortunate in knowing that I am not terminal and when this battle is over, I will continue to see my kids grow up. How thankful I am to God and because of this, I need to be a happier person and a more thankful person. I need to run this race with my eyes continually on Jesus. Yes, there are bumps in the road, but Jesus is there to pick me up and carry me over those bumps or yet, move those bumps out of the way. He is there for all of us for we are all running a race in life and we need not to give up but keep our eyes on Jesus. While at the relay for life, we ran into some people we know. Some are people on teams running/walking to raise money for cancer. Another person was someone my husband knew in high school. He just saw him last weekend and found out that his wife had breast cancer too. So, we met his wife and talked some about how to take care of mouth sores ( I have one that is bothering me). Then up walked up a doctor that I had been recommended to go to. She knew the couple we were talking to so I told her that I wanted to go to her but she said she's no longer taking new patients but she would take me. Yea!!!!! I need a primary care doctor and she's a family practice doctor. I've had some problems lately with my gyn so no longer want to go to him. How neat that God brought us together at the Relay for Life. You are probably wondering what's going on with my hair. It's still there but thinning out. I'm just ready to shave it yet. It's so thick so taking it's time to really come out. Alot of it comes out in the shower and as long as I don't pull on it, then it's okay. I'm sure I will have it shaved soon. Thanks to all who are reading this and who are encouraging me through this time in my life. You are all great!!!! Love you.....
Proverbs 4:11-12 I guide you in the way of wisdom and lead you along straight paths. When you walk, your steps will not be hampered; when you run, you will not stumble.
Yesterday evening, my husband and I took our son to a tennis social then we went out to eat. We had nothing to do afterwards so was driving around town when I suddenly remembered that the relay for life was going on. So, we went there and it was just starting when we arrived. We watched the cancer survivors walk a lap around the track. I want to be there next year as a survivor walking around the track. Then they had 3 cancer survivor speakers. They all inspired me and touched me such an awesome way. I want to be like them, battling this cancer and being happy at the same time. The first 2 speakers are both terminal and what a great spirit they had--both young and with young children. I am so fortunate in knowing that I am not terminal and when this battle is over, I will continue to see my kids grow up. How thankful I am to God and because of this, I need to be a happier person and a more thankful person. I need to run this race with my eyes continually on Jesus. Yes, there are bumps in the road, but Jesus is there to pick me up and carry me over those bumps or yet, move those bumps out of the way. He is there for all of us for we are all running a race in life and we need not to give up but keep our eyes on Jesus. While at the relay for life, we ran into some people we know. Some are people on teams running/walking to raise money for cancer. Another person was someone my husband knew in high school. He just saw him last weekend and found out that his wife had breast cancer too. So, we met his wife and talked some about how to take care of mouth sores ( I have one that is bothering me). Then up walked up a doctor that I had been recommended to go to. She knew the couple we were talking to so I told her that I wanted to go to her but she said she's no longer taking new patients but she would take me. Yea!!!!! I need a primary care doctor and she's a family practice doctor. I've had some problems lately with my gyn so no longer want to go to him. How neat that God brought us together at the Relay for Life. You are probably wondering what's going on with my hair. It's still there but thinning out. I'm just ready to shave it yet. It's so thick so taking it's time to really come out. Alot of it comes out in the shower and as long as I don't pull on it, then it's okay. I'm sure I will have it shaved soon. Thanks to all who are reading this and who are encouraging me through this time in my life. You are all great!!!! Love you.....
Proverbs 4:11-12 I guide you in the way of wisdom and lead you along straight paths. When you walk, your steps will not be hampered; when you run, you will not stumble.
Thursday, June 4, 2009
Hair
I Peter 3:3-4 Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as braided hair and the wearing of gold jewelry and fine clothes. Instead, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gently and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight.
Well, it's day 16 and my hair is finally showing signs of coming out. My cats and I are having a hair shedding contest and at the moment, they are winning. Good for them. lol. My hair is not coming out in clumps like some say it does, at least not yet. It's just like 10 hairs at a time but not in a clump. And it's shedding more at the bottom part of my hair. My scalp gets a little itchy but not bad. I'm not sad about it yet...in fact, it's kind of funny to see it come out. I think I've thought about it so much that I have desensitized myself to the fact so not as bad as I expected. Today I finally got my wigs styled--3 wigs. The lady who did it volunteers her time to do this so it was free for me. How sweet of her....She did a great job--cut some off on one wig. I need to buy wig stands--right now they are sitting on shoe boxes with the boxes standing on it's side. I don't know where to store these wigs. lol. I am hoping my cats won't be too curious---need to find a place on the closet shelf so they won't get into the wigs. lol. I had my coumadin level drawn today. It was normal but a little on the high end (which means my blood is thinner than it needs to be) so they lowered my dose a tad bit. I will get more blood drawn on Monday and I also get my blood counts done at the cancer center--all in the same building. I was looking at verses in the Bible on hair. The one I will write at the end says that God knows the number of hairs on our heads and He knows right now how many of my hairs are falling out. How amazing and you think sometimes, who would bother with such details but God is an awesome God and He cares everything about us. Isn't He great? Love you all....you are such a blessing to me.
Magtthew 10:30 And even the very hairs of your head are all numbered.
Well, it's day 16 and my hair is finally showing signs of coming out. My cats and I are having a hair shedding contest and at the moment, they are winning. Good for them. lol. My hair is not coming out in clumps like some say it does, at least not yet. It's just like 10 hairs at a time but not in a clump. And it's shedding more at the bottom part of my hair. My scalp gets a little itchy but not bad. I'm not sad about it yet...in fact, it's kind of funny to see it come out. I think I've thought about it so much that I have desensitized myself to the fact so not as bad as I expected. Today I finally got my wigs styled--3 wigs. The lady who did it volunteers her time to do this so it was free for me. How sweet of her....She did a great job--cut some off on one wig. I need to buy wig stands--right now they are sitting on shoe boxes with the boxes standing on it's side. I don't know where to store these wigs. lol. I am hoping my cats won't be too curious---need to find a place on the closet shelf so they won't get into the wigs. lol. I had my coumadin level drawn today. It was normal but a little on the high end (which means my blood is thinner than it needs to be) so they lowered my dose a tad bit. I will get more blood drawn on Monday and I also get my blood counts done at the cancer center--all in the same building. I was looking at verses in the Bible on hair. The one I will write at the end says that God knows the number of hairs on our heads and He knows right now how many of my hairs are falling out. How amazing and you think sometimes, who would bother with such details but God is an awesome God and He cares everything about us. Isn't He great? Love you all....you are such a blessing to me.
Magtthew 10:30 And even the very hairs of your head are all numbered.
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Chemo Day 15
II Corinthians 4:16 Therefore we do not lose heart. though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are beng renewed day by day.
Yes, today is day 15!!! I am doing pretty good with just a few little things but overall, I feel fine. Today I've been tired but I didn't sleep well due to some indigeston/gas problems. I am over that now--yea!!! My hair is beginning to shed like a cat--lol. It's just a small amount but more than normal. They say that you usually will start losing your hair from day 14-16. My hairdresser said I had such healthy hair that it might take longer. I received the sweetest note from her today for she was inspired by the way I acted when she was cutting my long hair. I guess she thought I would cry or something but I've been preparing myself for this and knew it needed to be done. It will grow back. I think once all my hair is gone, I might be sad but we'll see....God has been so good for through each little step He is right with me and I just feel His presence knowing that all is well. He is giving me the strength to be strong during this time. It is like the verse I wrote above.....my body is wasting away but I am being renewed by the Holy Spirit each day and I have grown closer to God. I've been praying before I was diagnosed with cancer that I would draw nearer to God. Surely He could have chosen a very different way but this is the path I am taking and I will draw nearer--and am seeing His grace and goodness through all of this. I am just amazed every day at the blessings He showers on me especially through people--like you. Every day I receive a note or card or a phone call which has inspired me to be a better caring person too. God meets my needs in many ways. The other day I was sitting out on my bench on front porch and wishing I had a porch swing for the front yard. I've been wanting one for quite a while and I just love to swing/rock and I wanted something more comfortable. My mom comes to visit yesterday and guess what, she brings me a porch swing--just like I wanted. I had asked her once for one for my birthday but they aren't out for sell in the winter so she never was able to get me one. Isn't God good to use her in that way. She didn't know that I had just been wishing for one the other day for I didn't mention it to anyone. Thanks mom!!!! Tomorrow I go get my Coumadin level checked again. My right arm has not been hurting or turning blue anymore so I am guessing that the blood clot is dissolving. I do have a terrible mouth sore or bump --like I had bitten the inside of my cheek. I kept biting it today while eating lunch so I am now putting a small piece of guaze inside my mouth between the cheek and teeth so I won't bite it. Thanks again for all of your prayers. Please pray that my white blood count goes up enough for me to have chemo next week. I don't want to get behind schedule, even though I am not looking forward to having chemo again but I must......Love you all.
Psalm 20:4 May He give you the desires of your heart and make all your plans succeed.
Yes, today is day 15!!! I am doing pretty good with just a few little things but overall, I feel fine. Today I've been tired but I didn't sleep well due to some indigeston/gas problems. I am over that now--yea!!! My hair is beginning to shed like a cat--lol. It's just a small amount but more than normal. They say that you usually will start losing your hair from day 14-16. My hairdresser said I had such healthy hair that it might take longer. I received the sweetest note from her today for she was inspired by the way I acted when she was cutting my long hair. I guess she thought I would cry or something but I've been preparing myself for this and knew it needed to be done. It will grow back. I think once all my hair is gone, I might be sad but we'll see....God has been so good for through each little step He is right with me and I just feel His presence knowing that all is well. He is giving me the strength to be strong during this time. It is like the verse I wrote above.....my body is wasting away but I am being renewed by the Holy Spirit each day and I have grown closer to God. I've been praying before I was diagnosed with cancer that I would draw nearer to God. Surely He could have chosen a very different way but this is the path I am taking and I will draw nearer--and am seeing His grace and goodness through all of this. I am just amazed every day at the blessings He showers on me especially through people--like you. Every day I receive a note or card or a phone call which has inspired me to be a better caring person too. God meets my needs in many ways. The other day I was sitting out on my bench on front porch and wishing I had a porch swing for the front yard. I've been wanting one for quite a while and I just love to swing/rock and I wanted something more comfortable. My mom comes to visit yesterday and guess what, she brings me a porch swing--just like I wanted. I had asked her once for one for my birthday but they aren't out for sell in the winter so she never was able to get me one. Isn't God good to use her in that way. She didn't know that I had just been wishing for one the other day for I didn't mention it to anyone. Thanks mom!!!! Tomorrow I go get my Coumadin level checked again. My right arm has not been hurting or turning blue anymore so I am guessing that the blood clot is dissolving. I do have a terrible mouth sore or bump --like I had bitten the inside of my cheek. I kept biting it today while eating lunch so I am now putting a small piece of guaze inside my mouth between the cheek and teeth so I won't bite it. Thanks again for all of your prayers. Please pray that my white blood count goes up enough for me to have chemo next week. I don't want to get behind schedule, even though I am not looking forward to having chemo again but I must......Love you all.
Psalm 20:4 May He give you the desires of your heart and make all your plans succeed.
Monday, June 1, 2009
Coumadin check and chemo angels
I Thessalonians 5:11 Therefore encourage one another and build each other up, just as in fact you are doing.
Today I went to the Coumadin clinic for first visit and blood check. They went through all the stuff I can't have and can have like medications and food, etc. and things to be careful about and then explained how they operate and figure out what dosage to take. My nurse is a nurse I used to work with years ago--maybe even before Sarah was born. That was neat to catch up with what she's been doing. Anyway, they check my coumadin level just by pricking my finger (yea--didn't hurt at all) and with a machine like glucose montoring for diabetes, they get my coumadin level. I was right I needed to be--praise God for that. I go back this Thursday!!
I wanted to tell you about a neat organization called chemoangels. It can be like a pen pal situation but it is where you apply and they match you up with someone to be your chemo angel. That person is suppose to send you an encouraging note every week while you are taking chemo. They can send little gifts like food items, lotion, etc. so on the application, they ask lots of questions about what you like. You can write back or choose not to but you do have to fill out some monthly report on how things are going. It turns out that I have 2 chemoangels. My first one wrote me like one hour after she received my name. She is young, 25 years, and sounds so bubbly by how she writes. I received a homemade card from my second one today and I'm the first one she has been an angel for plus she is a 4 yr. breast cancer survivor. She is 42 years old. I think this is a neat organization so looking forward to getting to know my 'angels'. I do plan to correspond and when I am done with this battle with cancer, I plan to be a chemoangel for someone. I am feeling very encouraged today--had such a good day. I was out most of the afternoon--stayed away from large crowds but did some visiting plus a couple of errands. Thanks to all my little 'angels' out there for I consider you all angels when you encourage me with your prayers, notes & cards, phone calls, visits, etc. God tells us to encourage each other and going through this is showing me that I need to be a better encourager myself. Love you all......
Hebrews 3:13 But encourage one another daily, as longas it is called Today, so that none of you may be hardened by sins's deceitfulness.
Today I went to the Coumadin clinic for first visit and blood check. They went through all the stuff I can't have and can have like medications and food, etc. and things to be careful about and then explained how they operate and figure out what dosage to take. My nurse is a nurse I used to work with years ago--maybe even before Sarah was born. That was neat to catch up with what she's been doing. Anyway, they check my coumadin level just by pricking my finger (yea--didn't hurt at all) and with a machine like glucose montoring for diabetes, they get my coumadin level. I was right I needed to be--praise God for that. I go back this Thursday!!
I wanted to tell you about a neat organization called chemoangels. It can be like a pen pal situation but it is where you apply and they match you up with someone to be your chemo angel. That person is suppose to send you an encouraging note every week while you are taking chemo. They can send little gifts like food items, lotion, etc. so on the application, they ask lots of questions about what you like. You can write back or choose not to but you do have to fill out some monthly report on how things are going. It turns out that I have 2 chemoangels. My first one wrote me like one hour after she received my name. She is young, 25 years, and sounds so bubbly by how she writes. I received a homemade card from my second one today and I'm the first one she has been an angel for plus she is a 4 yr. breast cancer survivor. She is 42 years old. I think this is a neat organization so looking forward to getting to know my 'angels'. I do plan to correspond and when I am done with this battle with cancer, I plan to be a chemoangel for someone. I am feeling very encouraged today--had such a good day. I was out most of the afternoon--stayed away from large crowds but did some visiting plus a couple of errands. Thanks to all my little 'angels' out there for I consider you all angels when you encourage me with your prayers, notes & cards, phone calls, visits, etc. God tells us to encourage each other and going through this is showing me that I need to be a better encourager myself. Love you all......
Hebrews 3:13 But encourage one another daily, as longas it is called Today, so that none of you may be hardened by sins's deceitfulness.
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